I’ve had multiple issues with people saying that I’m a liar and that I don’t count, that I look just white.
What hurt me the most is recently my friend all of a sudden blew up. She said I was a wannabe, that I’m a liar. “Tessa you don’t look Asian, you just pretend. Someone told me you’re just white.” And she said many other nasty things. Another close friend of mine, whether she was joking or not I don’t know, said she was sick of pretending that I’m Asian. I have nothing to prove. Thank God my mom defends me.♥
What I said back is that of course I look white cause I am! I’m not denying that. And that I hope she’ll understand soon. Another hard thing is I have no contact with my Japanese family. No dad, no grandfather. I don’t know Japanese.
And everyone expects a stereotypical looking Asian, when I say that I am. It’s just me in my biological family that’s Asian. Cousins won’t ever realize. My aunt doesn’t know. My mom flaunts/loves it! XD
She loves that I’m 1/4 asian. And tells me to be proud. I have some friends who let me be my Asian-self. I also have a very special friend who is also 1/4 Japanese, and we understand each other very well.
My mom married into a family with a bunch of half Filipinos. So now, I’m not alone. I get tons of sympathy. But it’s just so hard sometimes. Telling this story of my life makes me feel a little bit better; a little more proud.