I was born in Los Angeles, California to an Italian mother and a Japanese father.
I was mostly accepted into Japanese culture, and I can speak both English and Japanese. I’ve been back and forth from Japan to the United States throughout my childhood.
It felt strange not being accepted by full-blooded European Americans. It’s weird to be told that I should consider myself white because it will benefit me, but then be told that there is no such thing as white privilege.
It’s frightening to be hated in chat-rooms across the internet by people in Asia who don’t like Eurasian celebrities gaining fame in Asia and representing the Eurasian minority groups in these countries. It’s painful when Eurasian celebrities in America sell themselves out as white, and cause tensions between Hapas and the rest of the Asian-American community.
I’ve learned something though – Japanese is not a race, it’s a nationality, and white is not a race, it’s an exclusive club for pureblood people and those who wish to serve them.
I am Japanese.
I am Eurasian.
I am Hapa.
I am a peacemaker, a trailblazer, a lover, and a friend. I am a woman, a daughter, a cousin, and a shape and a color. I am a presence that you will never be able to replace no matter how hard you try – 「一期一会」ichi-go-ichi-e, just this once but never again.