Both my grandfathers were pure Chinese who build a family in the Philippines and as for me I want to do the same journey or adventure and discover a new home without discarding what I’m made of because it’s part of who I am.
Having different nationalities is fun because I get to experience different culture growing up and those exposures made me come up with my own interpretations which are far more in-depth, resilient, and empathic.
When I was younger, I do feel alienated mingling with Filipinos who has brown skin and deliberately teased me by speaking incomprehensible Chinese that usually sounds like “chong ching chang chong;” but I never felt bullied because I see speaking two languages advantageous and impressive like the National Hero of the Philippines Dr. Jose Rizal who knew more than two languages actually.
One of the great things in the Philippines is having a tight Filipino-Chinese community where I feel safe growing up and learning about life.
As I continue to live, I sometimes wonder what would be my future husband’s nationality but for sure I’ll support my future children with proper care and make them proud to be Hapa.