It was hard for me growing up to pin down what I was because I didn’t feel as if there was much guidance on racial identity coming from my parents. Not speaking any sort of Chinese made me feel inferior to the other Asian kids at school who were all bilingual and not being fully white made me the ‘token Asian’ to my white friends.
As I grew older, I began to form friendships with other people of mixed decent and could identify with the struggle to find a place to fit in.
Living in New York City, I get to see mixes of every kind walking past me on the street and it feels wonderful… like I’m not being stared at because someone is trying to figure out what I am. I love meeting someone who is multi-racial (especially Hapas) because we are the future, we are blending more and more racially as the stigma of interracial relationships continues to decline.
Now I embrace both my German and Taiwanese side with great enthusiasm and think of myself as being lucky to have more than one culture to take pride in.